Agape

I guess I was wrong
That happens sometimes when these words don't meet the lips
And the smile don't meet the eyes I am so strong
That I started carrying my sorrows in my pockets
Even as I juggled minor planets
And I looked to him for comfort
He said he would always be there and I wanted to believe that
He reminded me of a summer day in Brooklyn
A trainride away from happiness
And I promised I would never break like they had
Never cause pain like they had
Never take, always give, even if it meant my last
I was willing
His lips were the only thing that soothed me
In dark moments when the tumult of life slip into crevasses I could not protect
He would
With that smile that was brighter than any sun
And we was so powerful it was poisonous
Pure danger
And I loved him that much harder
They call it agape
Unconditional Love
There was no objective truth when it came to him
No time when context wouldn't count more than actions
No time where I wouldn't juggle tears, the truth and reason
To make sense
We were seasons, we were chaos
We were chasms and light blended into fury
Some kind of cosmic dance, we took our chances and my stance shifted
TO carry the weight you see
To balance the smile and pace myself for the miles ahead
He became my everything and that left me with nothing
But agape
SO I hold his memories like he held my hand
And I will not forget the lessons he taught
Through his actions, through my heartbreak
Through it all
I promised to always remember the way he felt
Until my smile and my eyes no longer meet I will carry you
Long after you have forgotten
I will be there, like I said
Agape